Wednesday, August 4, 2010

watching someone new

A good friend gave me some encouragement today. It wasn't asked for or anticipated, but the best kind usually isn't. Thank you, friend.

In talking to a man that comes to Jesus to ask him to heal his son, Jesus tells his disciples that if they have the faith of a mustard seed they can move mountains.

I have been very focused on my faith and the mountain in our lives right now. Gaby's health has been the mountain that I daily plead with God to move. The obstacle that I stare at and try and will to move. The thing I pray for every moment of every day. The thing that today is not going well.

My faith is something else I examine. Do I believe He can still heal today? Do I believe it is His desire to heal my daughter? Will I have faith in Him if He doesn't? Will I ever be the same person that I was back in March? Does He want me to be? Will He really get our family through this and to a time filled with joy again?

I am going to shift my focus today to begin watching someone new. Gaby still has my love and attention, but I am going to stop staring at the mountain and overanalyzing my faith and begin looking to the only ONE who can move the mountain. However He sees fit, He will move this mountain in our lives. My eyes are on Him.

I am going to begin fixing my eyes on Jesus, the one constant in all this madness. The author and perfecter of our faith. May He fill my spirit with His strength to remain focused on Him.


  1. Praying for you. Keep your eyes on Jesus, he WILL carry you through whatever is ahead. Joy will come in the morning. Harry and Lynnette

  2. You don't know me, but I have followed your blog and prayed after seeing it on Lydia's FB page. You are definitely on the right track. He will take you through whatever comes and bring you out stronger and better able to minister on the other side of it. My prayers are with you as you continue the journey with your eyes on the Lord.